She and Her

Life is so unpredictable.. you'll never know how and when you will get a friend..

I have an experience once. its started about 6 or 5 months ago.. i already heard about their names from someone.. but yeah i never notice it.. once i thought she was only a college student with a nice personality.. ya a good thinking-lah.. and then her was only an annoying person.. i kinda have negative thinking about her but i also have some thoughts about her.. but i've ignored all of my thoughts. we never had a real interaction to each other.. just knowing names and their activity by someone who known us.

In August 5th, 2009 at 11:25 pm, we're actually made a first real interaction. She sent me an email. And i tried to find her phone number. Then we're making a kinda communication. Thats the first time we introduced ourself to each other. She finally sent an email bcoz of something that has to be confirm bout something. And then we're get along. i know her bcoz of a not very good situation. i made a friend becoz 'our bf' cheating on us. and we both just knew about it. well, i thougth she and i have a same problem and the same situation. And becoz of that maybe we start to make a friendship with 'each other'.

She who already become my friend.. She come and ask me for a conversation.. for a chit chat.. and yeah we're share alot of things..Even She did shared about her feeling.. mine??i shared mine also.. but yeah maybe She thoughts i've lied about my feeling through what i've wrote.. well like what "her" said.. everyone has their own preception.. Actually im not liying about anything related to my feelings except im just using 'she' as 'a way for me to get out from his life'. well with she and him together it makes me hurt so bad so i can remove all my feelings. i let my self down. i'll see them falling down then i'll rise. now i already in somewhere and dont have any problem anymore.. but they still in a place keep troubling the same problem..
for honestly, i, myself even ever think in my mind "is she a dumb or something?? felt down for the same trap for two times?is 'her' logic already been blinded by her feeling?!".. but yeah everyone has their choices.

And now just becoz my reviewing handwriting about him.. it doesnt mean anything. well honey, i learned to not regret anything that happend in my life.. let it just be a memory to keep. everythings happen for a reason rite?! and no one come and make my life worsen or something. someone said "Kemalangan itu justru keberuntunganmu!". so ga ada yang salah dari apa yang terjadi..

Then.. Her come in to my life.. i've ever had a bad thought about Her once.. i even reject or ignore her invittation in some 'friendship account'. well i thought i dont know her.. then why should i care.. and what i've known about her is only a bad side.. so idc..but moreover.. im getting to know much information about her.. and it makes me want to know her more. then i come and offering a friendship.. just the same one like wat i did with 'she'. well im honestly just wanna make a friend.. Dia yang tak ku kenal ternyata ku kenal..

Thx for Her for being such a nice person to talk to.. even sometimes u like to make things 'geting hotter' hehe.. and thanks to 'she' for nicely being my saviour, nor she realize it or not. well i just wanna be a friend..

Everyone come and go in my life, but they always have a part in making me learning more about life itself.

Dia

Seorang menulis cerita bisa karna ia pernah mengalaminya ato pun hanya hasil pemikirannya. Well..aku menulis cerita karna apa yang pernah ku alami sebelumnya..oke lets begin the story..
So i met this guy, its about 5 years ago.. my 1st impresion is.. wooo this guy is smart.. after we met, we talked and shared many things.. and then we felt in love. and so we have kinda 'a relationship'.. and it was only taken about 6 months or more maybe for me to decide to end up that kinda relationship. Its something new.. its something that contrary even to myself.. and im not ready for it..

and then time goes by.. we still keep in touch.. still comunicate.. and i still have kind weird feeling. maybe i got a really crush on him. but i never regret what i did before.
so..we still talk to each other.. he shared about his life..about his love life..about his new girlfriend..and then he'd break up.. and then he had another new girlfriend again.. and im still here. im being the person who i used to be. the listener one.

i have another crush on another guy.. some guys comes in.. some of them just passing by. lets said they comes and offers me love.. but then again..im not ready for love..its only a crush.
at the first day of year 2006, this guy send me a sms.. he'd asked me to made a relationship again with him.. well for honest, i was a little bit shocked but yeah im happy..but im confused..i love to have a relationship..but if im ready..and my finger start to write the sms and send it back to him.. i decided to just make a friend with him..i'd better like that way..although i have that kinda feeling.. then day after day..month after month we're geting closer and closer..we're just like best friend.. but more than just friend..its like "TTM" but.. 'hanya dekat saja'..

in the middle of year 2006 another guy comes and bring me love..he gave me flowers.. he gave me his attention..his time to share with me and as always he'd asked me about a relationship..but i still refuse that love. then i talked about this another guy to this guy and then he said "its a time for you to have a relationship..hmm maybe i can introduce u to my friend.. well yeah it breaks my heart to know it.. i know deep inside i already felt for this guy.. but we still we.. still keep in touch.. still close to each other. until in the begining of 2007, he'd asked me again to be his girlfriend. he even lose his word when he asked me. hmm funny experience.. and finally we're back again. well there's alot of memories already in the past 3 years..

time goes by..i've told him once..i'm glad to know him..its nice to know him..
yeah after all the process..yeah i felt we've a great couple. he always nice to me..

i had one time when his moms passed away.. im really sad.. i think its a sorrow for him.. ii can feel.. i can see that.. well i dont knpw what to do or what to say.. i can only accompany him. tried to give support.. he'd tried to struggle.. and i know its hard.. then i met his family.. yeah i just build a kinda 'cozy reltion' with my life..

know..its already 5 years.. and the situation is different now. all kind of relationship with him is already gone.. he made mistakes.. big one.. he cheat on our relationship in the last one years. i also make mistake. well there's no one perfect.. everybody makes mistakes. but every mistake have their own logical consequences. and its about choice and how persistent you are to make urself better.

i never thought it will end up so tragicly. no contact. we've become stranger. at least, what i have in mind, we can still be friends, coz we've been friend for this 5 years. but everyone has their choices. and i apreciate it.

i'd hated him so much once.. but now i know.. i never regret everything that happend in my life. im not hating anyone anymore. coz now i realize im lucky.. yeah its really nice to know him. im happy. he'd already give me much life lessons. tengkyu dear..

now everythings change.. i move on.. he maybe leave but im not staying anymore..

its for you who i've known for this whole 5 years. tengkyu alot dear..

goodbye my lover..

Jadi Perempuan yang Karismatik..

did you know??
Kharisma itu 50% dari sananya.. sisanya?? usaha sendiri!

Hmm hampir semua perempuan hebat di dunia ini punya kharisma dalam dirinya.. sebut aja Margareth Thatcher, Rosiana Silalahi, hmm and even my mom.. All of them have charisma. isn't it will be great if we have the same charisma like what they have??? i've read in a magazine once that if u want have charisma, things that u have to do are :

1. Enjoy Life!Do things that we like so that we can be happy all the time. Remember! Orang-orang yang ceria ibarat gula bagi semut loh.. interesting kan?!
2. Santai, deh.. not all the things that we want, can we get. so dont push urself too hard hun..
   
3. Tahu Batas! dont be so hard to urself so that we can enjoy ourlife and tolerate on others minuses..
4. Berempati, dongs!! Jangan jadikan standar kita untuk mengukur orang lain. Ini kunci membuat orang lain nyaman di dekat kita.

So lets try..

Miley cirus - the climb

This is really a gud song.. the lyrics is so inspiring me.. "there's always gonna be another mountain..I’m always gonna wanna make it move.. Always gonna be an uphill battle..Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose.."

Two thumbs up!!!

Miley cirus - the climb



I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreamin
But there’s a voice inside my head saying
"you’ll never reach it"
Every step I’m taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with ’known direction
My faith is shakin
But I gotta keep tryin
Gotta keep my handheld high

There’s always gonna be another mountain.
I’m always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose.
Ain’t about how fast I get there.
Ain’t about what’s waitin on the other side.
It’s the climb.

The struggles I’m facing.
The chances I’m taking.
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking.
I may not know it but these are the moments that
I’m gonna remember most, yeah.
I Just gotta keep going.
And I gotta be strong.
Just keep pushing on,
’cause,

There’s always gonna be another mountain.
I’m always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle
But Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose.
Ain’t about how fast I get there.
Ain’t about what’s waitin on the other side.
It’s the climb.

Yeah-yeah

There’s always gonna be another mountain.
I’m always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes you’re gonna have to lose.
Ain’t about how fast I get there.
Ain’t about what’s waitin on the other side.
It’s the climb.

Yeah-yeah-yea

Keep on moving,
Keep climbing,
Keep the faith,
Baby

It’s all about,
It’s all about the climb
Keep your faith,
Keep your faith
Whoa, O Whoa

Tentangnya..

Tentangnya..

Ia mungkin hanya berusia sekitar 5 tahun saat semuanya terjadi. Ia seorang anak perempuan yang manis. ia tersenyum dengan polos. Ia bahkan masih belum

bisa berkata-kata dengan jelas walaupun ia sudah 5 tahun.
Ia dengan segala kepolosannya datang ke dalam hidupku. Ia memberi nuansa baru di hidupku. aku mungkin baru saja mengenalnya. Aku baru saja mengenalnya

dua bulan yang lalu, tepatnya Juli 2009. Ia, pagi itu, datang dan berdiri di depan pintu dan tersenyum manis. Aku mencoba menebak namanya dan aku benar

tp aku jg salah. kenapa? aku mengira nama panggilan dengan nama depannya tp tnyt nama panggilannya diambil dari nama tengahnya.
As the time goes by.. aku mulai mengenal dia..dia mulai mengenalku. ia pun mulai mengenal teman-temannya. teman-temannya pun mulai mengenalnya. ia

cukup terkenal dilingkungan teman-temannya. ia merupakan salah satu anak yang paling cepat dikenal diantara teman-temannya. ia dikenal karena adanya

komplain yang datang berkali-kali dari teman-temannya. dan itu terjadi setiap harinya.
"ia menyikutku.."
"ia memukulku.."
"ia kasar.."
aku pun harus sering menghadapinya, berusaha mengingatkan. aku berusaha mengajarinya. ia yang tidak begitu lancar berbicara, ia tidak mudah mengingat,

ia yang benar-benar tidak tahu apa-apa, benar-benar menguji kapasitasku.
seringkali aku dibuatnya sebal. sering kali dia membuat temannya terganggu. tapi kemudia aku berpikir.. apa yang terjadi dengan keluarganya?!mengapa

anak ini benar-benar tidak tahu apa-apa. ia bahkan sulit membedakan mana yang baik dan yang tidak. ia tidak bisa memilih. ia yang tidak mengerti

membedakan angka 1 dan 2.
sungguh.. aku penasaran dibuatnya. aku terus berpikir.. kenapa ia begini?kenapa ia begitu?mungkin ia hanya tidak tahu bagaimana

bersosialisasi..bagaimana berkomunikasi dan berteman.. ia hanya ingin diperhatin.. ia hanya ingin berteman..

kemudian dengan seiring berjalan waktu, semua drama dalam hidupnya mulai terbongkar. ternyata ia sering merasakan tindakan-tindakan fisik oleh orang di

sekitarnya. ia juga sangat kurang sekali perhatian dari orangtuanya. mungkin ia hanya akan berinteraksi dengan ibunya saat ibunya mengajak ke mall

untuk berjalan-jalan. itupun hanya 2 minggu sekali. ibunya seorang yang sering tampil dilayar kaca dan ayahnya seorang yang harus standby berusaha

menggunakan kemampuan untuk menyembuhkan orang lain. kedua orangtuanya sibuk. mereka jarang punya waktu untuk menghabiskan waktu bersama-sama anaknya.

untungnya ia mempunyai beberapa kakak yang menemaninya walaupun aku sendiri kurang mengetahui apakah ia benar-benar bisa dekat dengan kedua kakaknya.

tapi ia adalah ia. ia tetap saja anak perempuan kecil yang polos yang mencoba masa kecilnya disekolah, yang mungkin saja tidak bisa ia dapatkan

dirumah. aku tidak tahu bagaimana keadaannya di rumah. aku tidak mempunyai data sama sekali tentangnya. aku bahkan tidak bisa menghubungi orang tuanya

untuk mengetahui apa yang ia lakukan dirumah.

pernah suatu hari, seorang datang kepadaku, memberitahukan tentang tindakan fisik yang dialaminya, yang dilakukan oleh seorang perawatnya. Well aku

geram..bagaimanapun ia hanya seorang anak kecil dan tidak sepatutnya seorang anak kecil mendapatkan tindakan fisik, apapun yang dilakukan oleh anak

itu. kita seharusnya sebagai orang yang lebih tua, sudah seharusnya bisa membimbingnya. jujur aku geram.. aku kasian..

setelah kejadian itu, semua terbongkar. akhirnya aku mngetahui bahwa ia hanya seorang anak angkat dari keluarga yang sedang diambang kehancuran. kedua

orangtua angkatnya pun sedang akan bercerai. ayahnya selingkuh dan ibunya pun stres. perselingkuhan ayahnya yang sudah bertahun-tahun baru saja

diketahui oleh ibunya. bahkan ayahnya mempunyai seorang anak dari hasil perselingkuhannya yang juga bersekolah ditempat yang sama dengannya.
well semuanya sudah seperti cerita sinetron.. semuanya begitu tragis.. semua tentangnya membuatku luluh.. aku kasian.. aku berjanji aku akan

mendidiknya dengan baik sehingga ia menjadi anak yang mandiri. aku yakin bahwa hidup akan membawanya menjadi seorang perempuan yang lebih matang dan

siap menghadapi berbagai tantangan dalam hidupnya kelak.

ia mempunyai arti di hidupku..
ia mewarnai hidupku..
ia membuatku lebih berarti..
aku beruntung Tuhan memperkenalnya denganku..

4 fakta TERBARU!!!

4 Fakta Terbaru..
taukah kamu, aku baru saja mendapatkan 4 fakta baru yang mencengangkan..maukah kamu tahu?!penasarankah?!

hmm..

Fakta Terbaru nomor 1 : Taukah kamu bahwa manusia tidak akan bisa menyentuh semua giginya dengan lidahnya sendiri..

Fakta nomor 2: saat kamu membaca fakta nomor 1, kamu, dengan bloon-nya, akan langsung mempraktekkannya.

Fakta nomor 3 : Saat kamu membaca fakta nomor 2, kamu akan tersenyum sendiri atau menyadari betapa bodohnya Anda, berkata dalam hati atau bahkan berkata "wew"..

Fakta nomor 4 : Saat Kamu membaca fakta-fakta diatas.. kamu akan berpikir untuk menjahili dan berbagi fakta tersebut kepada orang lain, entah teman maupun pacarmu.hehe peace ah..