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Seorang menulis cerita bisa karna ia pernah mengalaminya ato pun hanya hasil pemikirannya. Well..aku menulis cerita karna apa yang pernah ku alami sebelumnya..oke lets begin the story..
So i met this guy, its about 5 years ago.. my 1st impresion is.. wooo this guy is smart.. after we met, we talked and shared many things.. and then we felt in love. and so we have kinda 'a relationship'.. and it was only taken about 6 months or more maybe for me to decide to end up that kinda relationship. Its something new.. its something that contrary even to myself.. and im not ready for it..

and then time goes by.. we still keep in touch.. still comunicate.. and i still have kind weird feeling. maybe i got a really crush on him. but i never regret what i did before.
so..we still talk to each other.. he shared about his life..about his love life..about his new girlfriend..and then he'd break up.. and then he had another new girlfriend again.. and im still here. im being the person who i used to be. the listener one.

i have another crush on another guy.. some guys comes in.. some of them just passing by. lets said they comes and offers me love.. but then again..im not ready for love..its only a crush.
at the first day of year 2006, this guy send me a sms.. he'd asked me to made a relationship again with him.. well for honest, i was a little bit shocked but yeah im happy..but im confused..i love to have a relationship..but if im ready..and my finger start to write the sms and send it back to him.. i decided to just make a friend with him..i'd better like that way..although i have that kinda feeling.. then day after day..month after month we're geting closer and closer..we're just like best friend.. but more than just friend..its like "TTM" but.. 'hanya dekat saja'..

in the middle of year 2006 another guy comes and bring me love..he gave me flowers.. he gave me his attention..his time to share with me and as always he'd asked me about a relationship..but i still refuse that love. then i talked about this another guy to this guy and then he said "its a time for you to have a relationship..hmm maybe i can introduce u to my friend.. well yeah it breaks my heart to know it.. i know deep inside i already felt for this guy.. but we still we.. still keep in touch.. still close to each other. until in the begining of 2007, he'd asked me again to be his girlfriend. he even lose his word when he asked me. hmm funny experience.. and finally we're back again. well there's alot of memories already in the past 3 years..

time goes by..i've told him once..i'm glad to know him..its nice to know him..
yeah after all the process..yeah i felt we've a great couple. he always nice to me..

i had one time when his moms passed away.. im really sad.. i think its a sorrow for him.. ii can feel.. i can see that.. well i dont knpw what to do or what to say.. i can only accompany him. tried to give support.. he'd tried to struggle.. and i know its hard.. then i met his family.. yeah i just build a kinda 'cozy reltion' with my life..

know..its already 5 years.. and the situation is different now. all kind of relationship with him is already gone.. he made mistakes.. big one.. he cheat on our relationship in the last one years. i also make mistake. well there's no one perfect.. everybody makes mistakes. but every mistake have their own logical consequences. and its about choice and how persistent you are to make urself better.

i never thought it will end up so tragicly. no contact. we've become stranger. at least, what i have in mind, we can still be friends, coz we've been friend for this 5 years. but everyone has their choices. and i apreciate it.

i'd hated him so much once.. but now i know.. i never regret everything that happend in my life. im not hating anyone anymore. coz now i realize im lucky.. yeah its really nice to know him. im happy. he'd already give me much life lessons. tengkyu dear..

now everythings change.. i move on.. he maybe leave but im not staying anymore..

its for you who i've known for this whole 5 years. tengkyu alot dear..

goodbye my lover..